I received a job offered from a very small job recruit company. This is my first offer since last year. When I received the call from the agent, I felt something very strange because I didn't remember I had ever applied for this job. My speciality is financial anaylsis. I graduated from Top 5 business school here. I have work in several international investment banks. I think myself as top in this industry but I still got sacked last year. Technically, I haven't been jobless for a year. It just happened last October. Now it's only January. Though, it sounds like ages ago to say "last year". After that, I tried to find a new job, but it seems I have run out of my luck. I can barely find any position from my specialty. Every company in this area is downsizing at this moment. I get desperate day after day. I felt I am going to be like this forever. Every time when I turned on the computer, I couldn't help log on my stock exchange software even though I didn't need to trace these numbers anymore. I still stared at the screen for several hours. I felt absolutely nothing inside me but I still did it everyday as a ritual to begin my day. I couldn't imagine a life without these changing numbers even though I didn't need them and they didn't need me, either. Some moments in the day, I felt I lost my consciousness. I couldn't remember what I was doing suddenly when I was in the middle of something because every minute seemed so similar to me. I think this was so-called "auto-pilot" moment. At that moment, your mind is actually absent, your habit governs. You can finish things without awaring of it. I got so used to it. I lived like this for awhile until I received this phone.
It is really hard to say how surprised I am since I believe I have lost quite a lot of sensual feelings. What I remembered is that I didn't remember this position at all from the company's name to the job's name. However, the job title sounded ok for me. They are going to offer me an accountant position to me. I have never done any job like accountant before. But hell, I told myself it's all about dealing with numbers and I will just take it. Quickly, I noted down every detail that I need to know including the address, on board date and my boss' name, Monsieur Lacroix, they said.
It took me awhile to find the place according to the address even though I checked google map before I went out. On the map, the place seemed quite detached from the street but the post code showed it is actually somewhere pretty close to central London. When I read the map, I noticed that, but I thought it was just some mistake a normal map might have.
After nearly an hour of searching and walking, I was convinced this place was not a mistake on the map. This is reality. It is really hard to believe such huge property besides Buckingham Palace does exist and this is where I am going to work. I told myself I think I need to find a way to get there if I have to go there five days a week.
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